don't hate me HAH this was also in my old hard drive.... isn't that cute! HAHAA
Kristine in Dom. Repb.(left) @Jewel's house making la-sag-NA(right)
i really miss highschool x ( .. hah, best highschool year !
Anyway, how is eberybody? ! I don't usually write what's on my mind hmm! I should start nao
holy my parents should never buy halloween chocolate a day after halloween is over! i know it's cheap but HELLUR! i'm the one that eats it the most x ( .. and that ain't goot fo YA skin. i was stressing over little things which caused me to eat soo much chocolate! my goodness.
i finally know how to print things @ langara.. after getting up from literally 6 people LOl. i was freaking out yesterday because my brothers printer ran out of ink.. so i had to rush to school.. to print it. had to find my user ID for going on comp and etc. and i was just so clueless hah. in a rush + nervous = lacking in common sense hahah oh well, was only late for 15 mins? no BIggie!
so if you need help going onto a computer or printing, holla at me, instead of asking 6 people, including this "Lab Aide" hahah : ). now that i think back.. it is so common sense.. LOl. oh lord
tatas for now!
someone please elaborate. i tottally forgot all my pokemons haha.. Viewer Discretion is Advised though
So I have probably been inspired by Dustin Kessler, for a few months now. A 17-year-old male who has cardiac insufficiency. Though his life expectancy is 7-8 months from now,
he has inspired others and especially me to live life to the fullest, and to live everyday as your last. He tries to learn everything he can; considering his short life.
Dustin's To Do List:
1. Have My 18th Birthday 2. Complete my Biography 3. Get my 2nd Black Belt in Taekwondo 4. Travel to Every Continent At Least Once 5. Visit the ‘Seven Wonders of The World’ 6. Get Drivers Permit 7. To Fly! 8. Meet & Talk To My Youtube Friends (Aj, Cathy, Andrew & Co) Face To Face 9. Do Something That Will Inspire People and Change Their Lives 10. Live Without Machines 11. Find The Most Beautiful Place On Earth 12. Meet My Dad (In Heaven) 13. To Die Happy
August 20th, 2009.
"Hey Guys, it’s me Dustin!
Some of you may know me as "Dusel" from Twitter, YouTube, Myspace & Co.. Well anyway I decided to start my own blog in hopes that some of you might enjoy reading this :)I know that I'm a bit late, maybe I should’ve started half a year ago, but better late than never! Incase some of you are reading this and have no idea who I am. I'm going to introduce myself now.
My name is Dustin, I'm 16-years-old and I'm from Germany. Please excuse my bad English, I try to learn this language as fast as I can but it's not that easy while lying in a hospital.
So, normally I would write all this stuff like... I have a sister, a mom, a dad and all these other basic things, but now I’ll tell you in more detail. My dad passed away about 6 years ago from a rare heart disease because the doctors didn’t recognize his illness early enough... this is destiny. So 4 years after my dad passed away I had my first small heart attack. I went to the hospital so they could check what was wrong with me. It didn’t take a long time until they told me the result of the tests. I had cardiac insufficiency. A rare heart disease and coincidentally the same sickness my dad had... but the doctors hadn’t recognized it earlier... I think this is destiny.
new heart, new life, new start - AJ Rafael
Anyway this is approximately how my story began. Months ago a German author came to me and asked if I wanted to write a book with him. Since then we have been writing a biography about my history, present and future. This blog will contain a short version of my previous life; I hope you enjoy reading about it.
For the last 2 years I’ve been lying in the hospital here in Cologne, Germany. Sometimes I travel around the world to test some new therapies or medicaments. The first year in hospital was quite relaxing. Since I stopped going to school, I try to teach myself as many things as I can. I spend my time drawing, or playing the guitar.
Then, at the beginning of this year, I had more and more heart attacks and my condition became worse. They put me on the list. "The list" is a congeries of people who are waiting for an organ donor. It took them nearly 4 months until they found a donor. During a 60 hour surgery they engrafted me the heart of a 23-year-old.
Since then I have had 26 surgeries. The heart transplantation was meant to be my life saver but it didn’t work out how it should have been. I was healed from cardiac insufficiency but my new heart was too weak to bear with my body. They engrafted me a pacemaker and I got attached to mechanical pumps that are currently holding me alive at night. My heart beats only about 10 times per minute. The blood is flowing through to slow that it’s starting to dry up, so some of my arteries and veins are closing. But the worst thing happened just about a month ago.
The blood pressure in my head was that big that it caused a tumor. Even though it was a benign tumor it could have been deadly so they decided to cut it out. The operation took place on July 24th. The operation was successful but for some reason the blood pressure didn’t decrease, so I passed out and was in a coma for 2 weeks. I woke up just 2 days ago without knowing anything that had happened to me. I didn’t know that I couldn’t even breathe by myself and almost died. But now that I know I survived, I must have a lot of luck and I’m thankful for everything. Thank god.
Everything is okay in the end. If it's not okay, then it's not the end
Every 4 weeks I get a new life expectancy. There was a time where they told me that I’ll just live for 7 more months, then I had 1 more year and at another time I had 2 more years to live. My actual life expectancy is about 23 months. I accepted that I will die and I’m okay with it. My last chance is a therapy I’ll do in October in Santa Monica, Cali. Let’s pray that another miracle will happen!
I hope this is enough for my first blog :) I will write more soon!
I haven't blogged in a while hah.. probably just like once a week or so because of school!! I studied my ass off for psychology and biologgy. Satisifed with my biology mark, but psychology? Not so much. I fugging got one mark lower than the first psych midterm. GOD. .. I studied so much in advance for this second psych midterm, and I STILL don't get the mark that I wanted. Any Advice?
Aside of school (goodness gracious!), I've decided I'm going to share my 'favorite things' that I have recently found or recently favorited.
This picture is to follow up the other previous bunny pic posts HAH. I think they are called "Suicidal Bunnies" : ) .. Saw a calendar with these pictures in it
Favorited Video: Green Light (p.s. I saw this once again on tabo's tumblr, and I cried + quickly favorited on youtube)
"Love is like playing the piano. First you must learn to play by the rules, then you must forget the rules and play from your heart." - Dustin Kessler
LOl I know this picture above is supposed to be 'filthy,' but someone want to expand this sentence? LOl. I only know the seahorse,ash, and squirrtle
So I was on facebook just browsing around, and i came upon this youtube video that someone posted about. In August, a healthy 26-year-old woman received a flu shot in Virginia. Ten days after her vaccination, she started passing out and having seizures, which may have led to a neurological movement disorder known as dystonia. It's avery rare case.
Dystonia is a neurological movement disorder where sustained muscle contractions cause body jerks, and abnormal or repetitive movements. It requires the learning of a new way of living, and re-learning even the most basic routines. It's also rare and not completely understood.
her symptoms include: -difficulty in speech recogniton, although she speaks normally when she's running. -twitches and jerks when walking forward -walks backwards/runs perfectly fine
So anyway. as sad enough as this sounds, i looked at the related videos and noticed this "Dystonia Remix - Walk it Out" video. It showed clips of her jerking and twitching when she was walking as the "Walk it Out" music was playing. HOW CRUEL. Your making fun of a woman with a neurological disorder. People these days disgusts me; they don't even have any sympathy. I don't find any humour whatsoever in that video. This is a woman who was a cheerleader with a healthy life and was preparing for a half a marathon race. And now, she cannot even do the simple things like eating or walking. Shame on you for thinking her disorder is so 'funny.' For those who are making 'funny' videos of her or thinking 'this is so fake,' please do me a favour, and have some empathy first.
.. I studied so much in advance for this second psych midterm, and I STILL don't get the mark that I wanted. Any Advice? 
